Okay so… I am hopping back on a diet for a while. It’s called the Keto diet and it is a sugar free low carb high fat diet. I’ve done it before with great results but fell off and with no exercise regimen or self control I gained the weight back. Right now I want something to stick to in order to avoid the holiday and winter weight gain… so this is it.
Yesterday was day two with no sugar and I FELT it. Body aches, chills, irritability, headache, exhaustion… all of it. I mean I was a hot mess!!! I had assumed I’d really start feeling the lack of carbs and sugar by day three but it hit me after only a day and a half. THAT’S how dependent my body had become on bad eating choices.
I turned 36 in August. I think it’s safe to say I’m at a crossroads right now. To relax into unhealthiness or to tough it out and see if I can reverse some of the affects of the bad decisions I’ve been making. I don’t want the boys to look at me in ten years and not be proud of what they see. I don’t want to not be proud of myself in ten years. I’ve kind of been in a give up phase for the past 6-8 months. I’ve been so wishy washy. One minute I’ve been ready to get it together… the next minute I’ve been like screw it, it doesn’t really matter.
I’ve got to find a non obsessive way to live life. Make good decisions. Get active. And reclaim a few things that I’ve lost. There’s no better time than the present. I don’t want anyone to diet with me. Or help keep me accountable. I just want to press forward for me and the boys… We’ll see where I end up with it. Hopefully smaller, healthier and with more energy.