A young widows journey… starting over, parenting, and finding my own piece of sunshine.
It seems I do most of my deepest thinking at work (I'm not sure why that is). But I seem to sit here while typing and my mind will wander off to how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking at the moment. And today... I realized that I'm actually feeling okay. Not in the manic, …
I was at the gym (see yesterday's healthier me post) changing into my work out clothes when one of the lady's who works in the kids club comes running in frantic. BJ had been running and playing (as kids do) and ran into a sharp edge of a window divider. He was going to need …
Self Care... and Self Love. Somewhere within the past month or so these two things became HUGE. I was talking to my best friend about her recent weight loss journey and the conversation steered in my direction and I told her "I don't want to focus on my weight or how I look anymore... it's …
Mother's Day was last weekend... and down the rabbit hole I went. I'm not sure when I'll ever get to a family holiday and not miss Byron, not think about what should have been... I should have had breakfast cooked for me and spent the day irritated that Byron went to work even though it …
There are FOURTEEN days left of this school year. FOURTEEN. And I can not wait until it's over. This school year has been rough from start to finish. I've questioned my parenting I've worried... I've stressed... I've prayed... and ultimately blamed myself for the problems of this year. First grade was a milestone of some …
Last night for the first time I had both of the boys get down on their knees and say their prayers with next to me. We pray nightly at bed time. Our ritual is that first they pray (now I lay me down to sleep...) and then I take it home. I pray over them …
So now that I'm trying to un-clutter my bogged down brain I've begun making lists again. I used to LIVE by lists when I first met Byron. I have always had a forgetful spirit but at the same time been a smidgen of a perfectionist. Oddly enough, as life got crazier I got more lax …
So I'm currently on week three of my my social media break. I've been off and on SnapChat mostly because I use it for messages. And I logged back into Instagram just because I was bored one day and then found out you can only disable your account every so many days so I'm stuck …
I used to be able to describe myself as an optimistic person. USED TO. But I'm pretty sure that's not the case at the moment. But I can't pin point why. You know how when you have allergies the doctor will sometimes put you on an elimination diet? Where basically you start at ground zero …
Allergies/Cold for the past week Migraine at work Burnout from constant month end close. Completely over this school year and being on pins and needles about what each day will bring. Emotionally exhausted. Lonely. These things and my to do list are wearing me out... My shoulders are aching and that's just stress. I'm feeling …
