A young widows journey… starting over, parenting, and finding my own piece of sunshine.
Allergies/Cold for the past week Migraine at work Burnout from constant month end close. Completely over this school year and being on pins and needles about what each day will bring. Emotionally exhausted. Lonely. These things and my to do list are wearing me out... My shoulders are aching and that's just stress. I'm feeling …
I look at my youngest and think about how fast time is flying and how quickly his toddler days are going by and my brain flashes back to when he was an infant. I think about how confused and tired and overwhelmingly sad I was during that time. Being widowed while pregnant was such an …
I am exhausted. More mental than physical but exhausted none the less. The worst part about it is that I can't quite wrap my brain around why I'm so freaking tired. Nothing major has changed. I started a new job in November but I'm pretty sure that's not it. I can't figure out if it's …
We lost my great aunt Ruby last night. To a heart attack... she fell unconscious on the way to the hospital where they tried to revive her but couldn't. This is almost the exact way Byron died. He was at a job site and she was on her way to the hospital... logistically different but …
So I've always been the kind of person who takes a set back and tries to figure out where I went wrong, what I could have done better and what I can do to keep it from happening again... I spent yesterday evening doing just that. Nine days in to what felt like the best …
My house has been a mess for two weeks. My boys need haircuts. My dog needs to go to the groomer. I need to clean out my closet and install a shower curtain rod (that I bought a month ago). My dishwasher is clogged and I'm going to have to pay someone to come out …
When the clock struck midnight this year I was laughing... LAUGHING. Who'da thunk it? I have cried my way into the New Year every single year since B died. There's something sad about starting another year... by yourself. Going into yet another year without a loved one. I remember when I could tell you the …
I saw this meme this morning... and it spoke to me. Some days I feel like I've grown so much... and then others I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere on this journey. Everything I do that is out of my comfort zone scares the hell of out me. And then I retreat. I …
There's one period of time during the day that always feels the loneliest. It's the time right after I put the boys down for bed. That's the period of time I should be going to join my husband on the couch and breathe a sigh of relief. It's the time you talk about your day, …
I fell in love with poetry at a young age. My dad had three of Nikki Giovanni's books. They were old and smelled so nice... they had that perfect old book smell. The pages were kind of a tan color from age and were a thicker texture. I loved flipping the pages as much as …
