BJ hasn’t slept through the night since he came home from the hospital. Sure, he’ll have the occasional night here and there but consecutively sleeping through the night has not been his thing. It occurred to me this morning after a particularly rough night that we’ve been waking up throughout the night with BJ for the past two years. I have been sleep deprived for TWO YEARS. I stayed at home with BJ for his first year… so this wasn’t as much of an issue then but now I’m back at and work I feel it. My body feels it.
I’ll admit it, it’s completely our fault. BJ fought the weight gaining battle that most preemies fought. We fortified his breast milk with protein and formula for extra calories. We monitored his weight gain and cheered at every once. So when he woke up at night to eat we gladly fed him. When his pediatrician told us we no longer had to give him a night time bottle we continued to do so because I was scared his weight would drop. Well now, at two years old he still wakes up for his “sippy”.
So here’s the big question… the biggest question in my life right now. How the heck do we make this stop? I want off this rollercoaster ride!! We could let him cry it out. There are studies that argue both sides of that method. We could slowly wean him off of the cup at night. But, for some reason I think my little boy would just pitch a fit when he ran out too fast. Or we can continue to wake up feeling like zombies until he’s older and can understand exactly what we tell him. I have googled a million articles and read a million posts on mommy boards but I just can’t figure out what to do here. I’m stuck. We recently switched his bed from a crib to a toddler bed so now I’ve added the fear of him getting out of bed and crying at his door to the list. What do we do here? Can my body take another year of night time sippy cup cries, another year of going to bed early in case he has a “bad night?” I’d like to add some normalcy to my bed time routine. I’d like to be okay with staying up late to finish a good book without being scared that I’ll fall asleep at midnight and BJ will wake up at 12:30am. I’d like to hang out with my husband after BJ goes to sleep for an hour or two without running to bed right after I put him down. How long can my life revolve around my son’s sleeping schedule (or lack thereof)?”
After the night I had last night I don’t think we can take it much longer. We created this night time hell so alas we have to deal with it…