The struggle

I don't write regularly. I wish I had more discipline in this area... heck every area. But when it comes down to sleeping or writing, sleeping always wins. Is it fair to call myself a blogger if I barely do it anymore? I used to find it cathartic but realized that I pretty much just …

Things I wish I could tell you…on your birthday

I miss you. Life has moved forward so much because it had to and sometimes I feel guilty for not standing still... for forgetting the way you smelled. I used to be able to feel your presence when you walked in a room. I loved seeing you walk into a room. I wish I'd known …

A letter

Dear Boys, It's been a while since I've written you a letter, so today (Good Friday) I thought I should. BJ...my growing, handsome, strong and resilient boy.... how I love you. You're slowly turning into a preteen. You say the cool little phrases "you thought!" or "duh" and your little brother thinks you hang the …

5 years

So... it's been 5 years. 5 YEARS. And in those 5 years I've... Moved, had our baby boy, BJ has started Kindergarten and is now is 2nd grade. The boys have begun sports and have played (football, soccer and basketball). I left the company I was working at and am now on my 3rd job. …

The Anxiety Effect

I'm going to be 100% real with you... I suffer from anxiety/depression. It's only affected my life for the past 2 years or so. I'm amazing at masking it but found it harder and harder to do for the past couple of years. The changes were subtle. So subtle that I didn't really realize what …

Sick and Tired

I woke up today in such a shitty mood! Nothing bad happened. No one thing made me mad. I just woke up thinking... ugh. I've had a borderline sinus infections for the past week and have been nauseated as hell because of the antibiotics my doctor prescribed. And every single step towards productivity feels like …

My boys

We pray every night. We ask God to cover all that is special to us, we thank him for all of our blessings, and in those prayers we thank God for each other. I can't begin to thank God enough for the blessings that are the both of you. The night before last B2, you …