And now…

  • Here we are…

    I look at my youngest and think about how fast time is flying and how quickly his toddler days are going by and my brain flashes back to when he was an infant. I think about how confused and tired and overwhelmingly sad I was during that time. Being widowed while pregnant was such an… Read more

  • Feeling blah…

    I am exhausted. More mental than physical but exhausted none the less. The worst part about it is that I can’t quite wrap my brain around why I’m so freaking tired. Nothing major has changed. I started a new job in November but I’m pretty sure that’s not it. I can’t figure out if it’s… Read more

  • Aunt Ruby

    We lost my great aunt Ruby last night. To a heart attack… she fell unconscious on the way to the hospital where they tried to revive her but couldn’t. This is almost the exact way Byron died. He was at a job site and she was on her way to the hospital… logistically different but… Read more

  • It’s hard outchea

    So I’ve always been the kind of person who takes a set back and tries to figure out where I went wrong, what I could have done better and what I can do to keep it from happening again… I spent yesterday evening doing just that. Nine days in to what felt like the best… Read more

  • My life…

    My house has been a mess for two weeks. My boys need haircuts. My dog needs to go to the groomer. I need to clean out my closet and install a shower curtain rod (that I bought a month ago). My dishwasher is clogged and I’m going to have to pay someone to come out… Read more

  • Happy New Year #2018

    When the clock struck midnight this year I was laughing… LAUGHING. Who’da thunk it? I have cried my way into the New Year every single year since B died. There’s something sad about starting another year… by yourself. Going into yet another year without a loved one. I remember when I could tell you the… Read more