And now…

  • Almost Christmas

    So… It’s almost Christmas. Another year has almost passed and now is the time for reflection and resolutions. The boys are 7 and 3 and life has become “normal” (Lord it’s taken almost 4 years to say that). BJ has now played two years of football and is in basketball. B2 is a potty trained Read more

  • On his birthday

    Today is Byron’s birthday. His 4th birthday in heaven. I can’t believe how fast the time has flown by. The boys are growing and doing so well… life is okay. But on days like today it’s so hard not to focus on what life should be. I spend A LOT of my time trying to Read more

  • A smidge of clarity

    I remember being so angry after Byron died. I couldn’t understand why God would bless us with a baby and then take Byron before he even got a chance to meet him, or hold him… or kiss him. I felt like God let me get inches away from my dream life only to snatch it Read more

  • Imaginary Failures

    Imaginary Failures

    “The only obstacle to your success is your imagination” I’m reading ‘The year of yes’ by Shonda Rhimes right now and this quote just happened. Literally 45 seconds ago and it touched me so much I had to stop reading and write. I’ve had friends tell me before that I’m a worrier, a word never Read more

  • The things I remember…

    Your laugh. Your deep baratone voice. The way your eyes almost closed when you smiled. The way you could never get enough of BJ. The way you said Kris… the way you called me Kristen when you were mad. The way you called me babe so much BJ called me babe too. The way you Read more

  • Trying to pass

    Parenting is so freaking hard. There are so many peaks and valleys and you never quite know where you’ll be from one day to the next. Being the sole parent of boys amplifies things a certain degree. I remember when I first lost Byron people would refer to my boys as ‘fatherless’ and I’d quickly Read more