Blog Posts – Fighting For my Sunshine

Sitting Still…

I have a habit of jumping into things with both feet, being a bit impulsive and THEN looking back and realizing that I’m having problems because I acted before thinking. I’ve been working on that this year. I’ve called this my year of sitting still. No going fast. No dating. No self induced negative energy.ContinueContinue reading “Sitting Still…”

Nikki Giovanni

I fell in love with poetry at a young age. My dad had three of Nikki Giovanni’s books. They were old and smelled so nice… they had that perfect old book smell. The pages were kind of a tan color from age and were a thicker texture. I loved flipping the pages as much asContinueContinue reading “Nikki Giovanni”

The bedtime blues

I read a blog a few days ago that said more often than not our little ones are not giving us a hard time… they’re HAVING a hard time. Those words hit me like a ton of bricks. It’s been a while since I blogged so I’ll give you a quick update. BJ is now aContinueContinue reading “The bedtime blues”

My Dearest Sunshine

Dear BJ, I’ve been writing you letters since the day I left the hospital without you. A letter a day for every day you were in the NICU (four long and difficult months), every birthday and every milestone. So I think it’s fitting that I write a letter to you today to tell you howContinueContinue reading “My Dearest Sunshine”

Bedtime Blues…

BJ hasn’t slept through the night since he came home from the hospital. Sure, he’ll have the occasional night here and there but consecutively sleeping through the night has not been his thing. It occurred to me this morning after a particularly rough night that we’ve been waking up throughout the night with BJ forContinueContinue reading “Bedtime Blues…”

Identity…

I’m BJ’s mom.Oh, I have an identity… I’m not one of those mothers who live solely through my child. I’m also a wife…I have hobbies, I sing, I dance, I run… I write (of course).But I can’t deny. Becoming a mother was the sole event in my entire life that crashed down upon me; thereContinueContinue reading “Identity…”