I had a break up y'all!! And because life has 'learned me' a thing or two. I'm smiling about it.
Tag: grief
It’s 2022… A 2021 recap
To say that time flies by is an understatement. I mean... time really does get away from us. I haven't posted anything since February 2021. That's INSANE. BJ is eleven and B2 is seven and my heart is full. Today I read back over all of my "walking wounded posts." I've been feeling funky and… Continue reading It’s 2022… A 2021 recap
Valentine’s Day
Today I miss having someone to love. It sounds so flippant. Of course there’s BJ and B2 but that’s different, that’s maternal. Today I miss really loving someone. The happiness that you feel thinking about the person you love. The security in having a person in that capacity. And definitely/of course being loved in return.… Continue reading Valentine’s Day
The grief monster
I've written before about this time of year, the time of year leading up to the day the bottom fell out. Somewhere in between BJ's birthday and February I start feeling like my nerve endings are starting to fray. Everything I touch I feel, like I've been partially holding my breath because I can't quite… Continue reading The grief monster
My Village… Thank you…
Today I want to write about friendships. When Byron died my friends stepped in. They did this thing where even if they barely knew each other they formed this connection with each other in order to be there for me. In my mind when I think about it I see a group of girls holding… Continue reading My Village… Thank you…
Sitting Still…
I have a habit of jumping into things with both feet, being a bit impulsive and THEN looking back and realizing that I'm having problems because I acted before thinking. I've been working on that this year. I've called this my year of sitting still. No going fast. No dating. No self induced negative energy.… Continue reading Sitting Still…
The slow down
So we're in month million of Covid -19... the boys are back home. We've found our groove again and I turned 38 yesterday. I've been working on my patio thanks to the Black Women who Love Outdoor Living Spaces group on Facebook. I've been doing home projects thanks to Black Women who love interior design… Continue reading The slow down
Chapter 9
Saturday my biggest boy turned NINE. The time has flown by so fast... I don't really know how to feel about it. He's maturing right in front of me. He counted down almost the whole month until his birthday in typical BJ fashion and he wanted to know if "everyone will know it's his birthday"… Continue reading Chapter 9
Things I wish I could tell you…on your birthday
I miss you. Life has moved forward so much because it had to and sometimes I feel guilty for not standing still... for forgetting the way you smelled. I used to be able to feel your presence when you walked in a room. I loved seeing you walk into a room. I wish I'd known… Continue reading Things I wish I could tell you…on your birthday
A letter
Dear Boys, It's been a while since I've written you a letter, so today (Good Friday) I thought I should. BJ...my growing, handsome, strong and resilient boy.... how I love you. You're slowly turning into a preteen. You say the cool little phrases "you thought!" or "duh" and your little brother thinks you hang the… Continue reading A letter
Fighting For my Sunshine 