The walking Wounded – Page 3 – Fighting For my Sunshine

Mother’s Day… a rambling post LOL.

Mother’s Day was last weekend… and down the rabbit hole I went. I’m not sure when I’ll ever get to a family holiday and not miss Byron, not think about what should have been… I should have had breakfast cooked for me and spent the day irritated that Byron went to work even though itContinueContinue reading “Mother’s Day… a rambling post LOL.”

VICTORY

There are FOURTEEN days left of this school year. FOURTEEN. And I can not wait until it’s over. This school year has been rough from start to finish. I’ve questioned my parenting I’ve worried… I’ve stressed… I’ve prayed… and ultimately blamed myself for the problems of this year. First grade was a milestone of someContinueContinue reading “VICTORY”

We prayed

Last night for the first time I had both of the boys get down on their knees and say their prayers with next to me. We pray nightly at bed time. Our ritual is that first they pray (now I lay me down to sleep…) and then I take it home. I pray over themContinueContinue reading “We prayed”

Making a list and checking it twice

So now that I’m trying to un-clutter my bogged down brain I’ve begun making lists again. I used to LIVE by lists when I first met Byron. I have always had a forgetful spirit but at the same time been a smidgen of a perfectionist. Oddly enough, as life got crazier I got more laxContinueContinue reading “Making a list and checking it twice”

Trying to sort it all out…

So I’m currently on week three of my my social media break. I’ve been off and on SnapChat mostly because I use it for messages. And I logged back into Instagram just because I was bored one day and then found out you can only disable your account every so many days so I’m stuckContinueContinue reading “Trying to sort it all out…”

Today

Allergies/Cold for the past week Migraine at work Burnout from constant month end close. Completely over this school year and being on pins and needles about what each day will bring. Emotionally exhausted. Lonely. These things and my to do list are wearing me out… My shoulders are aching and that’s just stress. I’m feelingContinueContinue reading “Today”

Here we are…

I look at my youngest and think about how fast time is flying and how quickly his toddler days are going by and my brain flashes back to when he was an infant. I think about how confused and tired and overwhelmingly sad I was during that time. Being widowed while pregnant was such anContinueContinue reading “Here we are…”

Feeling blah…

I am exhausted. More mental than physical but exhausted none the less. The worst part about it is that I can’t quite wrap my brain around why I’m so freaking tired. Nothing major has changed. I started a new job in November but I’m pretty sure that’s not it. I can’t figure out if it’sContinueContinue reading “Feeling blah…”

Aunt Ruby

We lost my great aunt Ruby last night. To a heart attack… she fell unconscious on the way to the hospital where they tried to revive her but couldn’t. This is almost the exact way Byron died. He was at a job site and she was on her way to the hospital… logistically different butContinueContinue reading “Aunt Ruby”

It’s hard outchea

So I’ve always been the kind of person who takes a set back and tries to figure out where I went wrong, what I could have done better and what I can do to keep it from happening again… I spent yesterday evening doing just that. Nine days in to what felt like the bestContinueContinue reading “It’s hard outchea”