Yesterday was Christmas. I decided 3 years ago that the boys and I would stop traveling for Christmas. When B was alive we tried super hard to appease both sides of the family. We’d pack everything up and drive to Austin for Christmas eve, spend the night and get up early and head back toContinueContinue reading “Christmas Tradition”
Author Archives: Kris
To my boys
Hey boys, I’ve never written you a joint letter before but I thought I’d give it a try today. BJ you are 7 right now and B2 you’re 3 years old. Christmas will be here in a few days and your level of energy and enthusiasm for life is amazing and exhausting. Right now B2,ContinueContinue reading “To my boys”
The Holidays
And oddly enough it’s Christmas time again. It feels like it was just Christmas a couple of months ago. This year Christmas feels a little different than it has the past few years. I wouldn’t say I’m engulfed in the Christmas spirit. But I would say I’m excited to see the boys faces this year.ContinueContinue reading “The Holidays”
Almost Christmas
So… It’s almost Christmas. Another year has almost passed and now is the time for reflection and resolutions. The boys are 7 and 3 and life has become “normal” (Lord it’s taken almost 4 years to say that). BJ has now played two years of football and is in basketball. B2 is a potty trainedContinueContinue reading “Almost Christmas”
On his birthday
Today is Byron’s birthday. His 4th birthday in heaven. I can’t believe how fast the time has flown by. The boys are growing and doing so well… life is okay. But on days like today it’s so hard not to focus on what life should be. I spend A LOT of my time trying toContinueContinue reading “On his birthday”
A smidge of clarity
I remember being so angry after Byron died. I couldn’t understand why God would bless us with a baby and then take Byron before he even got a chance to meet him, or hold him… or kiss him. I felt like God let me get inches away from my dream life only to snatch itContinueContinue reading “A smidge of clarity”
Imaginary Failures
“The only obstacle to your success is your imagination” I’m reading ‘The year of yes’ by Shonda Rhimes right now and this quote just happened. Literally 45 seconds ago and it touched me so much I had to stop reading and write. I’ve had friends tell me before that I’m a worrier, a word neverContinueContinue reading “Imaginary Failures”
The things I remember…
Your laugh. Your deep baratone voice. The way your eyes almost closed when you smiled. The way you could never get enough of BJ. The way you said Kris… the way you called me Kristen when you were mad. The way you called me babe so much BJ called me babe too. The way youContinueContinue reading “The things I remember…”
Trying to pass
Parenting is so freaking hard. There are so many peaks and valleys and you never quite know where you’ll be from one day to the next. Being the sole parent of boys amplifies things a certain degree. I remember when I first lost Byron people would refer to my boys as ‘fatherless’ and I’d quicklyContinueContinue reading “Trying to pass”
The bedtime blues
I read a blog a few days ago that said more often than not our little ones are not giving us a hard time… they’re HAVING a hard time. Those words hit me like a ton of bricks. It’s been a while since I blogged so I’ll give you a quick update. BJ is now aContinueContinue reading “The bedtime blues”
Fighting For my Sunshine 