My house has been a mess for two weeks. My boys need haircuts. My dog needs to go to the groomer. I need to clean out my closet and install a shower curtain rod (that I bought a month ago). My dishwasher is clogged and I’m going to have to pay someone to come outContinueContinue reading “My life…”
Category Archives: The walking Wounded
Happy New Year #2018
When the clock struck midnight this year I was laughing… LAUGHING. Who’da thunk it? I have cried my way into the New Year every single year since B died. There’s something sad about starting another year… by yourself. Going into yet another year without a loved one. I remember when I could tell you theContinueContinue reading “Happy New Year #2018”
I saw this this morning…
I saw this meme this morning… and it spoke to me. Some days I feel like I’ve grown so much… and then others I feel like I haven’t gotten anywhere on this journey. Everything I do that is out of my comfort zone scares the hell of out me. And then I retreat. IContinueContinue reading “I saw this this morning…”
At the end of the day…
There’s one period of time during the day that always feels the loneliest. It’s the time right after I put the boys down for bed. That’s the period of time I should be going to join my husband on the couch and breathe a sigh of relief. It’s the time you talk about your day,ContinueContinue reading “At the end of the day…”
Christmas Tradition
Yesterday was Christmas. I decided 3 years ago that the boys and I would stop traveling for Christmas. When B was alive we tried super hard to appease both sides of the family. We’d pack everything up and drive to Austin for Christmas eve, spend the night and get up early and head back toContinueContinue reading “Christmas Tradition”
To my boys
Hey boys, I’ve never written you a joint letter before but I thought I’d give it a try today. BJ you are 7 right now and B2 you’re 3 years old. Christmas will be here in a few days and your level of energy and enthusiasm for life is amazing and exhausting. Right now B2,ContinueContinue reading “To my boys”
The Holidays
And oddly enough it’s Christmas time again. It feels like it was just Christmas a couple of months ago. This year Christmas feels a little different than it has the past few years. I wouldn’t say I’m engulfed in the Christmas spirit. But I would say I’m excited to see the boys faces this year.ContinueContinue reading “The Holidays”
Almost Christmas
So… It’s almost Christmas. Another year has almost passed and now is the time for reflection and resolutions. The boys are 7 and 3 and life has become “normal” (Lord it’s taken almost 4 years to say that). BJ has now played two years of football and is in basketball. B2 is a potty trainedContinueContinue reading “Almost Christmas”
On his birthday
Today is Byron’s birthday. His 4th birthday in heaven. I can’t believe how fast the time has flown by. The boys are growing and doing so well… life is okay. But on days like today it’s so hard not to focus on what life should be. I spend A LOT of my time trying toContinueContinue reading “On his birthday”
A smidge of clarity
I remember being so angry after Byron died. I couldn’t understand why God would bless us with a baby and then take Byron before he even got a chance to meet him, or hold him… or kiss him. I felt like God let me get inches away from my dream life only to snatch itContinueContinue reading “A smidge of clarity”
Fighting For my Sunshine 