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5 years

So… it’s been 5 years. 5 YEARS. And in those 5 years I’ve… Moved, had our baby boy, BJ has started Kindergarten and is now is 2nd grade. The boys have begun sports and have played (football, soccer and basketball). I left the company I was working at and am now on my 3rd job.ContinueContinue reading “5 years”

2018 Year end review

There are only 4 more days left of 2018… FOUR MORE DAYS. It seems like only yesterday I was running into 2018 with optimism hope for love and happiness and all things positive. https://fightingformysunshine.com/2018/01/02/happy-new-year-2018/ And here we are… a year has passed. But not much else has changed. Don’t get me wrong… there’s been growth.ContinueContinue reading “2018 Year end review”

The Anxiety Effect

I’m going to be 100% real with you… I suffer from anxiety/depression. It’s only affected my life for the past 2 years or so. I’m amazing at masking it but found it harder and harder to do for the past couple of years. The changes were subtle. So subtle that I didn’t really realize whatContinueContinue reading “The Anxiety Effect”

My boys

We pray every night. We ask God to cover all that is special to us, we thank him for all of our blessings, and in those prayers we thank God for each other. I can’t begin to thank God enough for the blessings that are the both of you. The night before last B2, youContinueContinue reading “My boys”

Switching jobs, doing a little dating and celebrating anniversaries… been busy.

Work… I found out about two months ago that my job was going to be moving me to another position. It was a semi lateral move due to a change the company is going through but according to everyone I work with this was going to be the best move for me. My nerves wereContinueContinue reading “Switching jobs, doing a little dating and celebrating anniversaries… been busy.”

Stopping by to say hi

It’s been quite a while since I’ve written anything but as always… here I am. So much has changed so much remains the same. Both boys are in football. B2 is turning four and BJ has started 2nd grade. I’m working for a company that doesn’t stress me out. And outside of the normal dayContinueContinue reading “Stopping by to say hi”

Smiling

It seems I do most of my deepest thinking at work (I’m not sure why that is). But I seem to sit here while typing and my mind will wander off to how I’m feeling and what I’m thinking at the moment. And today… I realized that I’m actually feeling okay. Not in the manic,ContinueContinue reading “Smiling”

Peace of mind

I was at the gym (see yesterday’s healthier me post) changing into my work out clothes when one of the lady’s who works in the kids club comes running in frantic. BJ had been running and playing (as kids do) and ran into a sharp edge of a window divider. He was going to needContinueContinue reading “Peace of mind”

Mother’s Day… a rambling post LOL.

Mother’s Day was last weekend… and down the rabbit hole I went. I’m not sure when I’ll ever get to a family holiday and not miss Byron, not think about what should have been… I should have had breakfast cooked for me and spent the day irritated that Byron went to work even though itContinueContinue reading “Mother’s Day… a rambling post LOL.”

VICTORY

There are FOURTEEN days left of this school year. FOURTEEN. And I can not wait until it’s over. This school year has been rough from start to finish. I’ve questioned my parenting I’ve worried… I’ve stressed… I’ve prayed… and ultimately blamed myself for the problems of this year. First grade was a milestone of someContinueContinue reading “VICTORY”