life – Fighting For my Sunshine

January

At this moment in time life is steady and almost routine. I’m not complaining at all about that because I think there’s comfort in routine. I’ve been working and enjoying time off from being a football mom. But kind of looking forward to the excitement of our next football season as crazy as that sounds.ContinueContinue reading “January”

Chapter 9

Saturday my biggest boy turned NINE. The time has flown by so fast… I don’t really know how to feel about it. He’s maturing right in front of me. He counted down almost the whole month until his birthday in typical BJ fashion and he wanted to know if “everyone will know it’s his birthday”ContinueContinue reading “Chapter 9”

2018 Year end review

There are only 4 more days left of 2018… FOUR MORE DAYS. It seems like only yesterday I was running into 2018 with optimism hope for love and happiness and all things positive. https://fightingformysunshine.com/2018/01/02/happy-new-year-2018/ And here we are… a year has passed. But not much else has changed. Don’t get me wrong… there’s been growth.ContinueContinue reading “2018 Year end review”

The Anxiety Effect

I’m going to be 100% real with you… I suffer from anxiety/depression. It’s only affected my life for the past 2 years or so. I’m amazing at masking it but found it harder and harder to do for the past couple of years. The changes were subtle. So subtle that I didn’t really realize whatContinueContinue reading “The Anxiety Effect”

Switching jobs, doing a little dating and celebrating anniversaries… been busy.

Work… I found out about two months ago that my job was going to be moving me to another position. It was a semi lateral move due to a change the company is going through but according to everyone I work with this was going to be the best move for me. My nerves wereContinueContinue reading “Switching jobs, doing a little dating and celebrating anniversaries… been busy.”

Peace of mind

I was at the gym (see yesterday’s healthier me post) changing into my work out clothes when one of the lady’s who works in the kids club comes running in frantic. BJ had been running and playing (as kids do) and ran into a sharp edge of a window divider. He was going to needContinueContinue reading “Peace of mind”

It’s hard outchea

So I’ve always been the kind of person who takes a set back and tries to figure out where I went wrong, what I could have done better and what I can do to keep it from happening again… I spent yesterday evening doing just that. Nine days in to what felt like the bestContinueContinue reading “It’s hard outchea”

My life…

My house has been a mess for two weeks. My boys need haircuts. My dog needs to go to the groomer. I need to clean out my closet and install a shower curtain rod (that I bought a month ago). My dishwasher is clogged and I’m going to have to pay someone to come outContinueContinue reading “My life…”

I saw this this morning…

I saw this meme this morning… and it spoke to me. Some days I feel like I’ve grown so much… and then others I feel like I haven’t gotten anywhere on this journey. Everything I do that is out of my comfort zone scares the hell of out me. And then I retreat. IContinueContinue reading “I saw this this morning…”

Nikki Giovanni

I fell in love with poetry at a young age. My dad had three of Nikki Giovanni’s books. They were old and smelled so nice… they had that perfect old book smell. The pages were kind of a tan color from age and were a thicker texture. I loved flipping the pages as much asContinueContinue reading “Nikki Giovanni”