Saturday my biggest boy turned NINE. The time has flown by so fast… I don’t really know how to feel about it. He’s maturing right in front of me. He counted down almost the whole month until his birthday in typical BJ fashion and he wanted to know if “everyone will know it’s his birthday”ContinueContinue reading “Chapter 9”
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2018 Year end review
There are only 4 more days left of 2018… FOUR MORE DAYS. It seems like only yesterday I was running into 2018 with optimism hope for love and happiness and all things positive. https://fightingformysunshine.com/2018/01/02/happy-new-year-2018/ And here we are… a year has passed. But not much else has changed. Don’t get me wrong… there’s been growth.ContinueContinue reading “2018 Year end review”
Mother’s Day… a rambling post LOL.
Mother’s Day was last weekend… and down the rabbit hole I went. I’m not sure when I’ll ever get to a family holiday and not miss Byron, not think about what should have been… I should have had breakfast cooked for me and spent the day irritated that Byron went to work even though itContinueContinue reading “Mother’s Day… a rambling post LOL.”
Aunt Ruby
We lost my great aunt Ruby last night. To a heart attack… she fell unconscious on the way to the hospital where they tried to revive her but couldn’t. This is almost the exact way Byron died. He was at a job site and she was on her way to the hospital… logistically different butContinueContinue reading “Aunt Ruby”
Still Here
It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted anything… but I’ve felt like writing for quite a while and just now have a minute to get something down. I find myself writing in my head some days… I’ll lay down at the end of the day and think about the post I’d like to write,ContinueContinue reading “Still Here”
Kingdom work
This has been a long week. I think the loss of Byron is finally hitting BJ. He’s been more emotional than usual and acting out at school in ways that he never has. He’s also told me in the middle of tears and frustration that he “wants his daddy.” This past Wednesday was the firstContinueContinue reading “Kingdom work”
To my baby boy,
This is my first letter to you. One of what probably will be hundreds. I’m not writing this letter for any particular reason other than to tell you how much I love you and that I am so incredibly grateful God blessed me with you. When I think of your short time on this earthContinueContinue reading “To my baby boy,”
The calm after the storm…
“You are going through the trenches, going at it all alone, with no future to look forward to other than raising those boys. But one day Byron is going to speak to you telling you that you must move forward and get yourself together and at that instance you’ll realize that no matter what you must also live for you”…
Alone in my thoughts
It takes effort to drudge up enough give a damn to actually give a damn.
Things fall apart… loosing my husband
I haven’t posted in a while… mainly because this is a hard post to write. March 5th I got a call that no one wants to receive… A hospital in the neighboring city had my husband and according the doctor he was critical and I needed to come right away, she wouldn’t give me anyContinueContinue reading “Things fall apart… loosing my husband”
Fighting For my Sunshine 